Think harder.

I hate the shit out of myself right now. I have to stop messing up so royally.

A truth being told: I had an abortion

I would have a month old baby-living-creature-thing right now if I hadn’t nipped that situation in the bud as soon as it came to my attention. Many could see this entire post and ‘casual’ attitude as extremely rude, but I prefer to remain positive and actually reflect on the true benefits of being babyless. I am so happy with my decision (and, yes, it was a somewhat sad decision to make; it’s not as if I was banging a rando and no feelings were involved), and will do it again if/when I have to. Being raised to be a religious person, I thought that it would be much more guilt-inducing and traumatizing, but my reasons for aborting the fetus were so sound and the facility I had the procedure at was so well-staffed that I can nearly say it was an enjoyable experience, compared to what I had expected. It was certainly an eye-opener, and while I’d rather not have to physically endure another d&c recovery, I’m glad I had this experience. I learned a lot about my body, and my own mental strength.
Never be guilted into a doubly life-changing decision. Don’t give in to your small jealousy when you see your friends getting married and having babies at such young ages. Keep your mind on creating your own footprint in this world before worrying about creating another! Enjoy the life you have-you are interesting enough by yourself and if you aren’t, having a baby is only going to smother any personality you might have been cultivating! I hope someone is able to find the positive aspect in all of this and that the general reaction won’t be one claiming I’m bashing motherhood/babyproducingness.

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